I was scheduled to work two doubles in a row on 3 hrs of sleep. Incredibly happy someone took my shift tonight. Sleep is becoming increasingly important. I remember the high I felt the first time I realized I didn’t sleep to function. Seems now just functioning isn’t enough for my life hunger. I need vibrant transformative experiences, every day. I shun the mediocre. Even when I do chores, it’s a personal competition or a game. Self care for the win.
Tho, right now I’m drinking fruit wine while I wait for a friend to stop by n I have to be up at 6am to work 15 hrs. Ha. SABOTAGE.
I’m continually reminded that I’m not alone. Happy that I feel autonomy. I’m still caring for a regular cast of lovers, rebels n misfits. Now I’m walking lighter in recognizing the correlation between attachment n suffering. I belong entirely to myself, learning moment by moment to be unattached to even that. My heart still aches and regrets roll around on my tongue. But I’m okay, because no one knows who I am, not even me.
On a more tangible note, school starts ultra soon. Relationship loss, followed by job ending and school beginning makes for a complete life makeover. I feel very little terror, possibly because major life changes happen on a regular schedule. It’s hard for me to stay in one place. I’m burning with a fire to stay with school until it finishes. Commitment is something I have little understanding for, but I will fukken own this.
Study: Western US drought caused Earth to rise 0.16 inches
Los Angeles Times: The ongoing drought in the western United States has caused the earth to lift up about 0.16 inches over the last 18 months, a new study found.
Researchers found an estimated 63 trillion gallons of groundwater was lost since the start of 2013.
Photo: A section of Lake Oroville is seen nearly dry in Oroville, Calif., on Aug. 19, 2014 (Justin Sullivan / Getty Images)